Loneliness

So it starts. Friends have left. Family has gone back to work and routine life.
I sit at my desk. Waiting for calls about jobs, waiting for work to arise, waiting for travel plans to present themselves because I am too overwhelmed to create them.

As life is about creating and not searching so shall my year be. One of creation, not of a familiar stagnation.

I have been less than admirable in the context of God.
Admirable in the context of working hard.
Confused in the context of staying Focused.

To relax I drink Yogi Teas and listen to Joana Neuson.
To stay at peace with life, I work out.
To not explode with frustration from living with my family, I serve them.
To stay close to friends, I call them.
To grow with my relationship with God, I Put my Bible on my bookshelf...?

I do things so right so often, but without the main component and creator of life;God.
I believe that nothing is complete unless it involves God, so is all the hard work I'm doing really good? Or really admirable if I do it out of selfish ambition?
Who knows.


Time to order 'hole in the wall chinese' with pete.

Gap Year

After much deliberation and cognitive constipation I decided to take a gap year- a year to work, travel, do whatever, or do nothing at all.

Wish me luck.